The Grow Model

The GROW model is a framework which enables a Coach to structure the coaching process.

G - Goal and as your Coach I will use many other tools and techniques within the G part of the GROW model.  For example, skilled questions, using the wheel of life to prioritize your specific life areas and how much you are investing in each or even a vision board.

R - Reality,  expanding on asking skilled questions to find out your goal as your Coach I will help you to explore how your current life style fits with your goal.  I may use the patterns exercise, the beliefs table,  the change model to help you to gain an objective view of where you are now and where any gaps are to being where you want to be when your goal is achieved.

O - Options, as your Coach I will assist you in looking at the different ways you may reach your goal, which I will do by using many more skilled questions and techniques such as disassociation to help you to get an objective view of the many options for reaching your goal.

W - Will, also known as motivation.  I will use techniques such as Association and focusing on the positives to help you to harness all of your inner resources and assist your mind into a resourceful state.

The various filters and experiences

Being in a world where there are multiple filters of various thicknesses, some opaque and some like crystal quartz.  Those who can only see opaque will laugh and jeer at those who reveal what they can see through their crystal quartz filters.  Which view is true?  All of them depending on which filter you are looking through.  The opaque has more limits on what it can see whereas the crystal quartz has no limits.

Those who are seeing through the opaque lenses may jeer and laugh and poke fun at those who may see more than them.  They will tell them that they are ridiculous and not fitting for their world.  And this is true! They are too limited in the opaque world of filters.  And it is as if their wings have been clipped or that they are being kept a caterpillar when in fact they are a butterfly.

The Spiral up the lenses can be climbed fast or slow.  Each level has different instructions for inhabiting and different energy purities.  These purities can be affected by foods, drinks, words heard, words felt, patterns of behaviour, experiences felt and witnessed, visual images, films, music, vibrations, ways of being passed on to you, silence and noise.  But, the body is able to sense and know the levels and over time with more exposure to certain energies the energy field can expand and move closer to being able to access the crystal filters.

There are inner programs that will direct you and the more you choose environments and things that make you feel good the closer you will get to being able to sense things that help you to see through filters that are more expansive.  This expansion maybe different for different people.  Yet, all will be beneficial to helping you with this expansion.

You are a unique Aspect of God like an off shoot of the tree and yet not actually the tree itself.  Tree within the forest but still unique in ones expression.  Many who were seeing through the opaque lense did not understand the unfolding and got angry and controlling of those in their care and instead of nurturing them they limited them.  And made them feel small.  Yet, others who were able to see through thinner filters were able to nurture and help the others to expand a little more.

Then when the crystal filters were reached those who could see through it could see that in fact they were infinite and had created even more off shoots that spread over many and through many filters.  The first seed that had been an off shoot from the Central Core known as the "I am presence" created more off shoots which spread far and wide and lived within varied filters from the opaque to the crystal.  In this way was able to experience a vast array of experiences.  And be forever off shooting  and creating ..............................

Sally's Energy Contract

Introduction

We all have four bodies.  (Include the other subtle bodies here, that go beyond the spiritual body so there are 7!!)Three of them a subtle and not clear to the human eye and one can be seen clearly with the human eye.  The subtle bodies are known as the Spiritual body, which is furthest from the body that can be seen by the human eye, followed by the mental body, then the emotional body and finally our physical body.  However the Spiritual, mental and emotional bodies actually intermingle with the physical body and flow through it and out of it through some wheels popularly called chakras.  Our bodies are actually part of an energetic communication system and our physical body is the receiver much like a television or computer screen.

Once we understand and can take in this information we can begin to recognise that we are much more than our physical body that can be seen with our physical eyes.  We are a distinct network that actually is connected to a much wider universal network.  And this connection can never be severed only misperceived out of our awareness.  It is like going to a 3D movie and not wearing 3D glasses.  Our bodies go through transitions/stages.  Yet, is a continuous process of preparation for the next step.  Our essence/soul never seizes to exist and after each incarnation our personality merges with all our previous personalities.  Our soul is a collection of multiple personality traits from many incarnations and experiences both on different planets and different dimensions including the Spirit Realm.  When you look at all your life patterns from just this incarnation you will begin to see how every aspect has been connected.

In fact you will also as your awareness expands realise that this system has an inbuilt alarm system to let you know when there are blockages or distortions in the system, much like a computer virus scanner.  These blockages or distortions are known as dis-ease or illness, which simply mean that one of the programmes of either thought/view/interpretation, words/what you say about what is happening in the system, or actions within the system is going against its flow. 

We each have an inbuilt programme.  And if we tune into it and follow it our life will evolve and go through a creative process with ease.  However, if at any time we have ignored the directions and instead got caught up in another person’s ideas or process then we may have gotten off track a little.  This is not a problem and the system is self correcting.  Everything in the system will manoeuvre to put aspects of the system back on track.  Yet, this may take some time if any aspect of the systems receiver is being tuned out.  Although, the messages will get louder and sooner or later the receivers will get back into line, one way or another. 

The system has many components that are attached and some would describe this as the crystalline grid, which reaches into the earth core like a net and up through each living and inanimate object and right up into the cosmos/space and through every planet in the solar system and attached to the galactic centre in the great central sun which is attached to our own central sun.

To explain this system I am going to use one soul named Sally and through Sally’s adventures you will understand the system more clearly.  Sally’s journey is unique and aspects of it may only apply to Sally however many aspects of it will be universal.  There will be certain tools that Sally has used to keep her aspect of the system flowing which have worked for Sally, however, there are many tools and so as you go along your own journey and re-align you may find your own tools.  It is my hope that through reading Sally’s story you will re-align with your own systems and go on your own unique journey.  Yet, Sally’s journey may assist you in your own process and may reassure you as you go through your own processes and on your own adventure.  So lets’ begin Sally’s journey, which continues beyond this book as it is infinite and never ending but catalogues the steps she has travelled so far and so may assist  you as reader alongside the journey you are now experiencing in your own process. 

Prior incarnation

Sally, a magnificent vibrant soul was sat in her soul group when the higher council sent a soul Jameal to collect her.  I wonder what they want Sally thought.   On arriving Sally felt the council before her.  Her energy began to tingle, which is similar to the feeling you feel if lemon juice touches your skin.  She thought about how this was like a time when she had gotten into a bath with lemon essential oils in the earth dimension.  The head of the council telepathically spoke into Sally’s energy field.  In the Spirit dimension this is how energies communicate.  “Sally we hear you have been working really hard at projecting love energies to incarnates (humans) who reside in the earth plane/dimension in your soul classes and we want to offer you the opportunity to visit planet earth and continue your training.  Your training is needed to assist with major planetary changes that will take place after you have taken on all the energies in preparation in the earth plane you require.  Sally’s energy began to tingle more at this opportunity which is such an honour for any soul.  All souls know that in the earth plane/dimension it is a great training ground to hone your skills and you get to have a great impact on other souls.  Sally knew how many souls would love such an assignment, this was like an end of term examination and an accumulation  of all she had been learning in her soul classes and passing this test would raise her vibration greatly if she succeeded.  You see in the planet earth dimension because of the density/solidifying effect of the 3D  all thoughts, feelings and actions are slowed down and so it is easier to see one’s own creative process and refine it, whereas in the spirit realm all thoughts and feelings manifest very quickly. 

Sally was pondering how wonderful the adventure would be and thinking of all the tools she had used during past trips to the earth dimension.  She remembered how she used her heightened senses to assist her.  She had practised in her soul group remembering that all her senses would stay in a heightened state if she kept them clear.  In the earth dimension the heightened senses are known as clairsentient (clear feeling), clairaudient (clear hearing), clairvoyant (clear seeing) and claircognizant (clear thinking) and Sally knew that given these tools her task should be easy.  However, Sally was aware of the fact that it was easy to cloud these senses and demote them to a duller level.  Yet, she so wanted to go to planet earth and support others.  She thought how wonderful it would be to be able to see, hear, feel and know the love she was projecting.  Oh what an adventure.  During Sally’s pondering which was only minutes in human terms the head of the council sent a feeling/thought of focus into Sally’s energy field and she knew she had better get focused back on to the Council. 

Now Sally for this trip you will need to choose a body, which is a vehicle you will take a portion of your soul energy in, the rest will stay here in the Spiritual Realm so you can call on your pure energy which will contain be kept intact and will have a record of all you are as a soul.  And also will hold the instructions for your process in the earth dimension.  However, you will not have access to all aspects of your soul so you can focus on your current lessons unhindered.  You will be able to have access to the bits you need for each part of your task.  It will be important for you to tune in regularly so you know what your next steps are, is that clear.  Sally projected her thought into the Council’s energy field with a clear yes. 

Right Sally you will be given an induction before you leave so pay attention and you’ll be equipped for your task.  Remember you will be provided with the tools as you have had in the past to help you stay tuned in to your soul and also your guides will be on hand to guide you whenever you need guidance.  You are not going to be alone on this trip.  Yet, to access your guidance you need to stay clear so that your senses are not dulled, do you understand?  Sally projected a “Oh yes” and the soul who had escorted Sally to the Council informed her it was time to leave and return to her soul group.

Sally projected back to her soul group by just focusing her thoughts on the soul group.  You see in the Spirit dimension focus is the mode of transportation.  Sally found it hard to focus on her lessons in the soul group and imagined what planet earth would be like this time around.  As Sally day dreamed a soul from the selection room projected to her that she needed to focus on a choosing a body vehicle for her trip. 

Sally was made aware that the choices were limited to the body that was appropriate for the type of environments she would need to be equipped for, so she could fulfil her lessons and tasks.  It was decided that Sally would need a body which was sensitive enough to sense when it was going out of synch and also could sense if there were misalignments/blocks affect her system.  This would ensure that she was given the most supportive vehicle possible for her trip.  Sally chose a body vehicle that was sensitive to foods, which was an inbuilt alert system that she was desensitising her energetic body too much and dulling her heightened senses.  This body vehicle would also be able to pick up subtle energy distortions to assist Sally in her projecting love task.  You will have access to all the tools you need to carry out this task and also some tools to help you to realign if you should get misaligned.  In addition, there will be other souls to assist you that your higher self will connect you with as necessary to complete your tasks. 

The soul from the selection room explained to Sally the process of incarnation.  Firstly, the seed for the body vehicle would telepathically be programmed with the genetic programmes it needed to produce the necessary body vehicle that later Sally’s soul energy would be projected into.  However, the body vehicle needed to undergo a process prior to the soul energy projection so it was formed enough before integration.  The soul energy would begin integration during the sixth month of gestation.  And over the next 27 earth years the soul energy would be integrated at various intervals.  Prior to the 27^th year a period of preparation would take place and then on the 27^th year onwards the spiritual tasks would commence independently.  You see the soul of the mother and father has already been telepathically prepared for this whole process prior to their own incarnation.  During your preparation stage and beyond your biological family’s soul needs aspects of you and your energy makeup as much as you need theirs.  Thus, as I have already said the crystalline system is a universal energetic connected system and so you will be an aspect needed by other parts of the system. 

Pre-natal

The telepathic programming happened and at six months as planned Sally’s soul energy began its integration into the embryo and began to intertwine with the body vehicle.  The subtle bodies joined the physical body and the process of connection began, much like an electrical wiring system being installed.  Sally was deeply embedded in her mother’s soul energy and energy vehicle now and as explained she only had enough access to her soul energy as was agreed prior to incarnation.  Sally felt all of Jackie her mother’s thoughts, feelings and was affected by all her actions, such as the foods she ate.  Sally felt Jackie’s feeling of anxiety about how she would cope when Rebecca was born.  Sally wondered who Rebecca was and the thought was projected to her from her higher self that Rebecca was her incarnate name for this task.  However, that Sally’s soul name would remain and Rebecca was just another name for her when she was in the earth plane.  Sally was also told that her soul had taken many journeys to the earth plane in the past and had, had many earth names.  Sally felt reassured and her fear subsided. 

As the weeks went by Sally got used to her new environment and her new name Rebecca.  However, Sally found the anxiety feelings overwhelming and like being in a turbulent pool of water.  Sally realised as Rebecca she had access to her heightened senses but at times this created discomfort and overwhelm as she felt all of Jackie’s feelings.  Sally enjoyed moments when Jackie was relaxed in a warm bath because she felt calm feelings gently stroke her.  Sally enjoyed the meditative calm of concentrating on Jackie’s heart beat and this was a way she centred herself in her new environment; especially when Jackie felt overwhelming feelings. 

Just as Sally was getting used to her new name and environment and was feeling quite at home she was informed that she was now going to fully be known as Rebecca and would be completing the next stage of her journey on planet earth.  Sally began to realise that the journey to the new environment was going to be hard work but as long as she just allowed it would happen with ease.  Yet, Sally wasn’t so sure and didn’t want to leave.  She had absorbed fear thoughts and feelings from her mother’s energy field and these had dulled out her excitement about entering the earth plane.  She held back as long as possible and then this rubbery suction pad pulled on her head and pulled her out.  Jackie’s body also didn’t seem so pleased to let go and hemeredged.  Jackie had a blood transfusion.  Just then Sally saw lots of people smiling and thought maybe it wasn’t as bad after all. 

First year

During the first year I had my parents all to myself.  Each thing I did made smiles appear on Jackie and Sam’s faces.  I felt feelings of love and undivided attention.  Every physical need I had was met with a cry.  At first this was a little funny to have a thought and then to verbalise this vibration.  Yet, I soon got the hang of it.  The majority of my first year was spent resting and I could feel all the many connections joining up, like an electrical network.  I could still project my thoughts back home in the Spiritual dimension and felt such joy.  There were occasions when I would feel Jackie’s anxiety in my energy field but they would soon be replaced by hugs, cuddles and smiles.  However, during my eleven month I started to sense Jackie’s thoughts were elsewhere.  My spiritual guidance team reassured me that Jackie would still be there to help me and so would they, yet now she would also have a new soul to care take as well called Jenny.  I felt Jackie’s feelings of anxiety rise again and projected thoughts of love to her and she managed to feel calmer.  I knew Jenny who was a soul called Faye from my soul group.  And my spiritual guidance team reminded me that I and Jenny were going to help each other in a significant way with our journeys on the earth plane. 

After the first year

After the first year, Jenny incarnated and I began to feel separated from my parents because Jenny seemed to cry and they instantly ran to her.  This was the first time I realised the sadness and separation.  I hadn’t had to contend with in the spiritual dimension.  I began to think about why I felt this way and just then a thought popped into my mind that said now you have physical needs and yet all you need is still only a thought a way.  The new incarnate, triggered thoughts of separation in me and I began to feel frustration and annoyance.  The more I focused on these feelings the more my spiritual reality dimmed.  It wasn’t long before I had forgotten that all I wanted to manifest was only a thought away and when it wasn’t it was because I didn’t really need it on my journey anyway.   I turned my attention to this new incarnate that they called Jenny.  Jenny cried and cried and the love feelings within me began to be replaced with feelings of fear.  How was I ever going to compete with this intense vibration that only filled me with such anxiety?  Soon I lost my spiritual connection and I began to think of ways of competing with Jenny for the attention of Jackie.  My mind patterns began to form and connections within my brain fuzzed together so soon I automatically knew how to respond so that I could get Jackie’s attention.  I would be such a good girl and Jackie would praise me.  I got very good at being a good girl. 

Childhood

The dances of energies were demonstrated throughout my childhood.  I learnt how others exploit their positions/role and over power you before you even know what’s hit you.  You think ‘this is not the fuzzy love I felt back home. ‘I feel the fuzzy love feeling is only flitting now as it begins its decline.  By now I am wishing I was Sally because she’d know what to do.  Why oh why did I agree to be Rebecca?  What am I going to do?   Back home souls projected love yet here it’s like only overpowerment seems to be projected and to get even a slight bit of love projected means doing as the older one’s say.  As time went on I met more and more people who used overempowerment until there wasn’t anyone who weren’t either being overempowered or using overempowerment.  So there was nothing else I could do but learn the rules of this power game.   During day dreams I was able to link back home.  Yet, whatever Sally was able to convey to me from the Spirit Realm it didn’t appear to help me here on planet earth.  The days I would daydream got lesser and lesser and soon in my apathy, I just stopped contacting home.  The rules of the game were doing what an overpower ranger wanted, which seemed to bring some attention and what seemed as close as possible to love. 

At three years old I got to see just how difficult this game was to play.  I wanted a toy off Jenny and so I cried and started to get very upset.  I was so sick of Jenny getting all Jackie’s attention.  However, my display of tears and snot did not get me the fuzzy love feeling.  No as I cried and danced on the spot stamping my feet an older person known as Gail began to goad me and sing a song to me “wipe me eyes, wipe me eyes” and then took a dish cloth and scrubbed my face.  I just sat sobbing.  Jackie never came to my rescue and Jenny got to keep the toy.  Later when I was five years old I attended school and there I met evil Sue another over power ranger.  Along with my class mates I was asked to draw and colour a picture to be entered into a competition for the local dentistry association.  I spent ages drawing a picture of the dentistry surgery and felt in such a day dreamy state and felt the fuzzy love feelings flow through me.  I thought maybe I’ve found another way to feel the fuzzy love from back home.  However, when my picture was collected the over power ranger told me it wasn’t good enough.  Despite the fact that I had spent all day producing this picture and it had brought me so much joy in this moment I felt a rush of pain.  And all my energy seemed to drain out of me.  I had used the wrong verb and so instead of writing ‘our nurse’ I had written ‘are nurse’.  Again I realised this power game was not an efficient way of managing my energies and actually hurt a lot.  The way these over power rangers attached their suction pads on to you and drained your love energy was the most painful thing I had ever experienced.  I realised that this power game was getting even more complex.  I began to think that ‘No one back home had told me this place would be so draining and painful.  And how on earth am I going to complete my love mission when each time I get some love energy they apply their suction pads and drain it all out of me?’. 

What was most confusing was what all these over power rangers were doing with all the love energy they were sucking out of me.  You would have thought they’d be over flowing.  It’s at this time I realised that there was another type of energy that seemed to have a clouding effect on the love energy and deplete it.  It was as if once the love energy was sucked out it collided with this cloudy energy and disappeared quite soon after it merged.  I just couldn’t understand what was happening as this other energy never existed back home.  But, I knew if I was ever going to succeed at my love mission I needed to figure this out.  I noticed my friend Jess used this energy sucking and most of the others, so I resolved that it must be normal for planet earth.   Although, I noticed that whenever I was near trees or flowers I felt the fuzzy love energy of home.  Yet, as soon as I was around other people it seemed to be sucked out of me. 

Further into my fifth year Kitty incarnated and I watched as Jenny realised that her old ways of getting energy seemed to be obsolete.  She began to look to me and watched how I got Jackie’s energies.  However, she noticed I was more experienced than her and so she used a mixture of my ways and her old ways to gain energy.  At times she would try many attempts to get energy.  I also realised that I’d have to be smarter if I was going to have both Kitty and Jenny to compete with for Jackie and Joe’s energies. 

At aged seven my grandfather Fred became ill and seemed to be very ill at ease.  You could feel his sadness and his energy seemed much depleted.  I began to ponder what had happened to him as I walked home from school one day. Why had his body turned on him? Just as I was day dreaming my spiritual guidance popped into my head.  And the thoughts that ran through my head were “Rebecca when much hurt and disease runs through the cells of the body at a certain point this unresolved hurt affects the cells and causes a virus that affects the electoral impulses within the cells receivers.  You see we have cells which receive programs from the field/universe.  The programs are activated by the field but if too much disease results then the programming can go haywire and create illness.  However, if the disease and unresolved issues are corrected then the system can reboot so to speak.  Yet, since the receivers are impaired sometimes the person’s dissonance is not resolved until they return home.  Fred was given medications and pain relief and yet he couldn’t recognise the alarm that was letting him know that illness is disease in the system.  However, some are able to recognise the alarm or before it is too impaired their receiver hears the alarm, before the dissonance turns into cancer.  Rebecca was told that she’d understand all this one day.  I noticed that all of Jackie’s energies were now focused on helping her father Fred.  I realised that those who are ill seem to have a way of getting others to focus all their energy on them.  It was as if when the person was sick that their energy field sucked on those who were well around them.  All I knew was that not only did I now have Jenny taking Jackie’s energy I now had Fred. 

Whilst at school I had heard about vampires sucking blood and began to ponder that these vampires who sucked blood were similar to the ones who sucked energy.  When I was ten years old I made an attempt to stop a sucking session but faced with three over power rangers energetic suction pads this was difficult and the more I tried to stop them the tighter the suction pads became.  It began as they tried to force me to eat food my body refused.  I refused to be clogged up with excess food because this just drained even more of my energies.  Because I refused to eat the excess food they ordered that I wouldn’t be allowed to take part in sports day.  However, it was a small price to pay and in fact since I would be outside near the trees it meant I got to fill up on love energy from connecting with the grass and trees.  I sat thinking about how I really needed to figure this out if I was going to fulfil my sacred script.  Maybe the trees would help me?  Just then my spiritual guidance team came through and informed me that all this was part of my task and that each soul is on its own journey and when the time is right will find their own way home. 

High School

Around the time I was entering high school the power games got much more complex.  Joe and Jackie faced a major setback.  Joe’s energy field seemed to be overtaken and his thought forms went haywire.  All of Jackie’s energies were focused on coping with this setback and so she was much more unavailable and all the power game rules had changed yet again.  I realised that unlike grandfather Fred Joe wasn’t lying in bed.  I would pick up Joe’s and Jackie’s fearful thoughts and I would feel very anxious much like I had when I was in Jackie’s womb.  At school I decided not to attempt to challenge any over power rangers.  In all honesty my whole body felt anxious.  I felt like I was in a cloud which consumed all of the energies within and around me.  I felt weaker than I have ever felt and so separate because Jackie was so focused on getting through each day.  My home had become thick with a fog.  It was at this time that I met Kim.  Kim would project jealous thoughts at me and seemed upset that Emma was my friend.  Kim one day started to place a banana skin on the top of my head.  Yet, I didn’t have the energy to respond.   One afternoon Kim turned against one of my old school friend Robert and told the teacher that he had skipped school.  As Kim told the over power ranger about Robert skipping school, I felt a rage fill my being and it attached itself to my inner rage about all that Kim had done to me and all the other fearful thoughts that had formed in my aura.  I challenged Kim about what she had done and Kim reached over and pulled my hair.  I took all my rage and focused it on to Kim.  I felt a sense of relief fill me as all that energy left my aura and filled the room.  I sat with my hair all over the place and the over power ranger returned to the class room.  He asked me why my hair was all over the place and someone at the back, I think it was David said “Kim pulled Rebecca hair”.  Kim was suspended from school and was very nice to me thereon.  She’d offer to carry my dinner tray many times.  However, I never took advantage of the situation as it didn’t feel right.  Yet, I had discovered the relief the over power rangers felt as they dispelled all their fearful energies.  I imagined these energies must have filled everyone else’s cells.  Just then my spiritual guidance team popped into my head and said “Yes fear thoughts and energies spread out and fill up any cells that are clear and then pollute everyone else’s energy fields.  Especially those whose cells are most clear.”  I then projected the thought to my spiritual guidance team “how can this be cleared?” and they responded “some go outside near the trees and some go near water, for example, when they go fishing with their family, others eat healthy foods, all these help to clear the cells”. 

Later at around 13 years old I was faced with a similar situation to the one I had experienced at five years old.  However, this time it wasn’t the drawing I had drawn that brought great pain, it was my math work.  As I sat and read my school report it said “makes math complicated”.  I sat feeling very confused and sadness filled my being.  I thought “Now not only can I not fulfil my love mission, I can’t even deal with the tasks these over power rangers set for me”.  I didn’t know then that all of the fearful thought forms from the teacher were being transferred into my cells along with my own fearful thoughts.  These fearful thought forms would stay in my cells as programmes and every time I am faced with a similar situation the fearful thought forms will increase. 

Conscious Journey

New Path 2010

At the beginning of 2010 my Guidance Team guided me to look at my diet and start to eat things that my body accepted.  Through this process my weight stabilized and many symptoms such as IBS cleared up.  In September of 2009 I when I typed up my placement application I was told to sell myself and boost up my application form.  I was very honest during my placement interview.  When I started my placement I was guided to be more authentic and made the decision to not hide any of my weaknesses.  This created some chaos in my outer world.  One of the placements I was working at for my degree broke down.  I spoke up about some unfair practices and the authority over me did not like this.  I know I have an energetic pattern to break moulds, which had surfaced again.  It seemed that each time I went to work somewhere and there were unfair practices I felt moved to speak up.  I underwent an official panel and I was instructed to take some time off from university until they could find me a new placement.  During this time I was guided to take up an opportunity to do a Life Between Lives workshop.  I felt drawn to do a one to one session.  During the session I was told I was here to be a healer.  Later at another workshop when I was regressed I found out that I was drowned for being a witch in 1849.  I was told I had been a healer for many lives.  I also saw how I had been hung and my mum and one of my sister’s was present.  My mum hung me for cheating on my sister.  These things explained why I am so afraid of deep water and heights.

Not long afterwards I was directed to join a group called the Akashic Wisdom Keepers where I was so drawn to an indigo activation.  The energy was so hot and yet it so resonated with me.  The more I researched what an Indigo was the more I understood myself.  My energetic pattern of breaking moulds made sense J I began to understand that the mission for my life was to help with dismantling the old systems.   I was guided to do more activations and each one coincided with my path at the time.  The second activation I was guided to receive was the Blue Ray, which helped significantly with my relationships.  During this time many old relationships where I had been taken for granted fell away.  My relationship with my parents began to change.  And at this time relationships with my mum and sister were illuminated.  In my root chakra I experienced some physical clearings. I was offered and later they were declined for no apparent reason 3 placements.  It was as if as I was changing energetically and so the outer relationships were changing. The next activation was the Crystal Ray, which helped me to reconnect to my Spiritual DNA and my health improved greatly.  After this I took the Emerald Ray activation which helped me with over all healing.  And then came the Diamond Ray, which was very powerful and activated my higher heart, which is just located above my human heart chakra.  This activation cleared my heart chakra and cleared my system of many repressed emotions.  I had physical symptoms as the toxic emotions moved out of my chest.  I took sea salt baths to help with the clearings.   Then I was directed to take a Pineal Gland Activation with The Children of The Sun Foundation.  I was very authentic about my learning needs at my next placement and yet my authenticity seemed to create many waves and insecurity in my mentor.  I realised that not everyone likes things illuminating.  I ended up at another university panel.  My Spiritual Guidance was showing me that I needed to balance Karma and stand in my power.  Archangel Michael who is one of my main guides was with me as I stood up to 10 members of staff who were in authority.  I told my truth despite the fact that they tried to cover up the lack of support they had provided. 

Ascension

During the summer of 2011 my body underwent major clearings.  I was exhausted.  I couldn’t sleep most nights and would sleep during the day.  I couldn’t be near certain people.  I felt sick whenever I went to the supermarket.  I felt like I had flu and the aches and heaviness weighed me down.  My intuition increased and I began to really connect with birds and numerology and tarot.  My intuition came in dreams, songs, feeling drawn to things or away from things.  My sensitivity increased and this enabled me to master the energies more fully.   And then I kept seeing intuitive messages about coaching.  I remembered I had seen this same message in tarot messages but had not understood what it meant.  The angels and my team have highlighted messages I needed to see and with the coaching it was no different.  I also began to work with the moon energies and manifestation lists as recommended by Calista a healer in Scotland.  Then in September 2011, I joined a coaching diploma.  What is amazing is that I had been guided to be prudent since January 2011 and had not understood truly why.  However, I had the right amount of money to pay for this course.  This course is like coming home, it is so uplifting to me and truly has been life changing.  In October I started listening to some full moon transmissions with Judy Satori and felt guided to begin working with the 21 keys of Recreation to prepare my physical body and clear on all levels, which then follows with connecting to your soul group’s 144 extensions.  And once a week connecting with Jill Renee Feeler’s Golden Ray Meditation.  Life has changed a lot as you can see, in my career, friendships, boundaries and how I spend my time.  I have just been guided to begin Yoga.  My guidance is very clear these days.  And sometimes a little scary because my mind doesn’t know where she is going.  Yet, the feelings and love I feel from my home frequencies is amazing.  I am looking forward to what next.  My manifestation power has increased so much.  I cleanse in salt baths daily and I rest when I can.  There is a blue print in my DNA and the energies and solar flares are helping to reprogram it, and the 21 keys and the meditations are speeding up the process. 

AA Gabriel has guided me to post this on my blog.  It is work in progress but if it helps anyone then at least it’s out there! 

Power

What is power?

There is external power that in my life has tried to block me from what I wanted.  Back then I did not realise that I could go inwards and intend.  Facing this external power block and believing many lies and being controlled left me feeling damaged and emotionally wounded and upset.  True power encourages another to embrace their greatest potential and facilitate the shaping of the creative energy.  Whereas external controlling fear based power is forcing another and holding them back out of a sense of control.  The truth is what heaven has in store for me will come my way if I get into the right space and observe.  The emotions maybe linked to distorted thoughts or they may be telling me the truth that someone is acting in a cruel way to try to hold me back.  I have noticed how the times when they struggled to either understand me or control me they have projected their fears and annoyance on to me and made it be about me.  “She makes it too complicated”,  “she is not meeting our unrealistic expectations”, “She should do as we say”, “It’s her fault if the conditions or learning opportunities didn’t go to plan”, “It is her fault that we didn’t know certain information relevant to our job roles”, these are just some of the messages that have shaped others behaviour towards me.  Anyone would think that they were totally oblivious to their part in the co-creation.   All of this has shown me the distorted use of power.  However, when we intend and direct energy into a certain direction we are infusing it with power, for example, my words and ideas I shared shaped many of my clients views about giving themselves a second or even third chance and knowing they could always start from where they were and make the future different in some way even it was in how they started to look after their own diet or health.  So I see with power you can either inspire and invest in someone and expand them or you can work to overpower them and block them from being all they are when they are allowed to flow.  I choose to be like a river that nourishes others rather than large boulders that block others out of my own fear of what others might say in response to the outcome I am worrying about. 

So much to offer in my life!

I’ve got so much to offer the people in my life:

When I smile at you, you just know how much I care.

When you see my eyes looking at you with a look that says something’s in life are out of your control yet if you will just reach out your hand I can help you to take a step in the other direction. 

When you hear the words I say to you they show you I think there is hope for you yet. 

When you see the commitment and energy investment I give to you, you know that you are faced with someone who has not given up on you. 

When you see that despite many pit falls I still put time and effort into helping you out of a hole you know I am God sent.

You see I did not have a fancy private education.  I had a parent who struggled to keep us all together and a father who has many challenges to deal with on a daily basis.  I had a nana who taught me that prayer will get you through anything and even when you know you are dying you can put your faith in GOD. 

You see I have dyslexia and it makes me seem a bit disorganised.  Yet my heart needs no organisation and if you know me you’ll know that I’ve probably touched your life in a special way.  I am not saying this because I have an over inflated ego.  I say it because a small still voice inside me is growing now ever more louder.  

The Healthy Helper

·       There maybe times in your own life as a healer when you have some major challenges in your life and you really need to prioritise your resources/reserves.  Therefore, this may mean, despite someone coming into your life that is vulnerable and in pain, you may still need to pull back and let them find someone else to lean on. 

·        You may feel conflict because of your role as a daughter, mother, sister, brother, father, partner, husband or friend and feel obliged to offer to help out of duty rather than because you are really in a position to help.  In these times it helps to remember that sometimes not providing the resources is actually the most helpful.  For example, if someone keeps going over their own finite resources they may be in a position of learning if you refuse to help and by doing without they may adjust their spending habits in the future. 

·       Be mindful that prosperity comes in many disguises.  It comes in the form of information and ideas, contacts with others, energy and healing, prayers, treats, opportunities and money.  It may even come as an adversity that teaches you about your pattern of behaviour.  For example, you may keep being used until you learn about the limits of your resources and speak your truth.

·       Remember the only adult you should make day to day decisions for is yourself that is unless there is an incapacity law that states that a person is unable to adequately make a decision themselves or significant risks are involved. Even those with mental health conditions or dementia are capable of making most decisions for them.  Remember when you try to live for others you maybe interfering with their karma and lessons.  Clearly, this does not count if the person is a child who does not have the maturity to make informed decisions. 

·       Likewise, sending healing at a distance can be interfering in karma because the illness or emotions maybe warning signs about patterns that need changing and removing the warning before the issue is resolved by the person changing their patterns will just mean it will resurface and they will still have to endure further illness until the pattern is changed at some point.  The warning will keep coming in much the same way that the gauge on the petrol/gas meter will keep on showing empty until something is done to rectify the problem. 

·       Conversely, remember to be open to receiving instead of just giving out because otherwise you block the flow of the universal plan unfolding.  This includes excessive talking and sharing your opinions.  Also be mindful of the impact and integrity of what you share.  For example, check with your own guidance whether to share any guidance with others and check to discern whether anything you receive resonates with you.  No one else should be an authority over you apart from your own guidance.    

·       Moreover be mindful of your own patterns because it is by changing thy self that the outer will change.  It is no use saying everyone takes and takes if you have a habit of giving and giving.  Thus, before you set out to sort out them out there focus on changing you and then what you are projecting outwards will change what is your reality.

Zig Ziglar – Attitude Makes all the Difference

Zig Ziglar – Attitude Makes all the Difference